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Justina
- Aug 11, 2020
- 2 min
The more time that passes, the more isolating grief feels.
I have isolated myself. I have pushed people away. I feel at times I'm living in a lonely space. Why? Grief is isolating and losing a child is unfathomable. Let me try to explain… It's been a year and a half since we lost our first son. I can smile, laugh at my husband's jokes, fall deeply in love with our second-born son, enjoy time with friends, go workout… I am able to put one foot in front of the other each day and pick myself off the ground. It sounds like things have go
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Justina
- Apr 16, 2020
- 2 min
11 "Bonus" Weeks With You
We knew you were going to come early, just like your brother did, but we didn't know how early. At 29 weeks and 3 days, you made your debut into the world. Your father and I were terrified of losing you too. When you came home at 36 weeks gestational age, it was so surreal - to bring our son home and to have 11 "bonus" weeks with you. As NICU parents it's hard not to look back, not to have guilt, not to think of the fears, not to miss the opportunity of having a full-term pre
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Justina
- Oct 27, 2019
- 3 min
Finding Out We Are Pregnant... After Loss
April 26th, 2019 I took a test, I’m 8 days late…We're pregnant. A moment of joy for most was anything but that for us. It's been three months after we lost our son who spent three days on earth with us, it was 6 months before we could try to conceive again, on birth control for 2 months...it was next to impossible that this happened. I was 8 days late, with no symptoms, I knew there was no way we could be pregnant, but I had to take a test to make myself feel better. I took o
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In honor of Carter