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After three NICU stays, becoming a mom twice in one year, the trauma of losing one child, 80 days on bed rest, all the emotions of bringing our second son home, and everything in between… I've struggled with figuring out my new life and finding my new self. My new self after loss, as a mom and a parent after loss all while dealing with postpartum depression, PTSD, and learning how grief and joy can co-exist. Slowly I began noticing a change. New thoughts and feelings that wer

The full range of thoughts and emotions in the mind of a NICU parent is incredibly hard to describe. When your child is in the NICU you wonder if you're alone in the feelings that engulf your heart and your head. After three NICU stays in one year, we've watched our boys fight for their lives, we’ve lost, and we’ve brought home a miracle. I am frequently asked what our experience was like and so I want to share with you the a glimpse into the range of emotions we went through

March 23rd, 2019 was a gorgeous day, the sun was shining, the weather was perfect. It was supposed to be the day of my baby shower, but instead we were holding a service for our son. We received many texts that morning from family and friends who couldn't be present, but we knew they were there in spirit. It still hadn't quite hit me. As I walked up to those who were at his burial site, it was the first time I saw his stone. My already shattered heart, shattered even more. I